Can you really have it all…

Finding a balance in life is a realistic and important goal for me since I am a single mom. Because at times everything in my life feels out of control all at once. When everything happens like this I like to take it all back to where it initially began for me, the road…

This weekend was an exciting weekend even though I decided against going to a big race in Jacksonville FL I have always wanted to do. I did get to visit my old running stomping grounds of Fitzgerald GA to run and chat with my first running coach Mr. Frank McLeod. Running with Frank is good therapy for me because he is so knowledgeable of this sport and also so familiar with my ailments I deal with. As we ran he immediately told me what he thought my issues were, and of course it was the big word I hear a lot of “OVERTRAINING”. After he said it I knew he was right on, like most of the other people I talk with are. But I shrugged it off and continued talking of things happening in our lives. I was chatting away of the activities I was doing and all the plans I had made and he stopped me and said Stephanie the writing is on the wall here, you can read it or ignore it! This is leading to an emotional burnout and you have been through these in the past so what is it you really want most? Do you want this Boston dream? He continued and said you have too many goals you are trying to achieve all at once, take one step at a time and focus and things will work out as planned.

When he said all this to me I sunk down in my chest and began to actually realize the point he was making. My love is running and my big goal is Boston. I have just got to refocus in and concentrate on what I want the most and I know what I want and always have. I do see the writing on this wall. I have had different types of negative energy arise in some areas of the places I have been putting too much of my focus, so I believe this is a type of sign for me to back off from that training a while. I spoke to him of this and he agreed with me and said you can take this sign or leave it but its going to lead to another disappointment if you do not refocus in on what you initially started with.

Running and qualifying for Boston is my passion I started with! It has been for so long because I feel it would be fantastic for me to accomplish this when I lived two months of my life so close to death and struggled so hard to get my ass out of that wheelchair and walk again!! This will happen for me its going to take me refocusing in on my training regimen back to those roads I love and I know I can do this…